I guess I can eat my words.
I finished maybe half the problems on the final.
Atleast my takehome test and my turned in homeworks will boost my grade!
I wonder if I'll end up with a C or B.
C is most likely.

Hanging in the math study center

I've been studying for my final in differential equations for the past two days. After buying my ti89, I've been confident as ever. The expansion function alone warrants the $150 price tag. And I keep finding more and more to love about this thing. It has 100x the power of my 83. It's not even close.

Well time for my final.

stuck at the Detroit airport

I'm at the Detroit airport right now, and it doesn't look good for making my flight. Its overbooked by 5 people... Not cool. Maybe there's another way I can get out of here. I'll have to call my mom and find out I guess. I only have two plane tickets, so my options are limited. Hm. Well anyways, I got to spend memorial day weekend with amanda which was nice. Had a nice picnic.

Once I get home I have to study my ass off for finals and make my grade. I'm on the cusp of a C, but this has been the hardest fought grade in quite some time. I think its cause of my return to school has been a bumpy tide since the fires. No more excuses. I have 3 days ahead of me of pure math shit. I hope I'm on time to class today. My flight might kill me...

I'm hanging at the Chicago airport right now... Just thinking about how easy it would be to steal unclaimed luggage. Its lying around for the taking around here... It is 2 in the morning but jeez. If this was San Diego, they'd probably shut down the whole airport, ha.

I actually miss the cots they usually set up for the overnight passengers right now. I guess theyre not setting them up tonight because theres not enough passengers stuck in limbo. Dammit. Well, I got the airport back in my own way. You could say I peed all over the toilet seat. Just kidding.

5 more hours until my flight. Two more hours till I can get back into the terminal. Six more hours till I get to see Amanda. You do the math. I've got a good memorial day weekend up ahead, and I'm almost done with differential equations. My final is on Thursday! Egads.

And my job prospects are still low right now, but I'm working on it. I've got more apps to hand in as well as some call backs to make. I need a job pronto! I'm doing the best I can, right? I must work harder... Once I'm through with my math homework and final, there's no excuse. No rest until I have a job..

I want to succeed... work in equals work out.
Hm.
Fuck.
Shit.

And I gave up weed.

That'll put me on the right track.
I should feel healthier day by day.

The biggest thing hurting me right now is not having a job.

late

I missed MGMT at X-fest!! Nooooo. Missed them by 30 minutes. I didnt realize how early they'd be playing... On to jimmy eat world etc..!!!

Another day in paradise

I had totally forgettin about being at the zoo earlier today. I'm currently at a Mexican restaurant called Alambres in the Gaslamp. I shared my blog with Amanda today and she shed a tear! Oops, ha ha. I revealed my blog without much consideration of its contents. That is why I write as I do... No regard for audience... Writing for myself... Honesty and truth... That is what its all about. I am pretty much in love with this girl and enjoying every moment of it.

Well, I might be going to X-fest later tonight. Amanda and I are going to see if we can scalp a cheap pair of tickets outside Qualcomm. I am loving San Diego. And I mean that with all of my heart right now... Others should share this intensity! If they are incapable, they're missing out... I hate to think of Amanda leaving me tomorrow. Life can be cruel and great..

I'm at the airport right now, and amanda's flight was delayed. How much longer must I wait to see her?! Just 30 more minutes. An eternity! So I'm sitting at the airport in a rocking chair with flowers in hand... Only 30 more minutes... I also have to pick up my dad from the airport today too. What an eventful day.. I ended up selling my Dell laptop yesterday for $550. I nearly went broke, and now I've bought myself some wiggle room. My dad should also be giving me my tax return today for around $400. There's even a paycheck from the Party Staff that has god knows how much on it. So things aren't great but they're certainly looking up. This is the start of an awesome week with Amanda..

Goddamn I'm sitting next to this old couple, and the husband is bugging the wife to asks groups of people what flight they got off. Lmao. Chill the fuck out! Read the computer screens and get a cell phone! And if you have to ask around, do it your fucking self and don't ask your wife to do your work for you! Cranky old bastards. Ugh. I hope I don't wind up like that.

Job hunting begins... starts... as always...

a lot has changed

And by change, I mean good change. I was really unhappy with a lot of things for the past 6 months, but I've learned to be happy. And it doesn't involve being run over by others. I somehow got myself into the trap of thinking that appeasing others would bring the fun out of me. I was completely wrong. I remember being totally out of my comfort zone for very simple things. It was the circumstances, and mainly because well... On the inside I didnt want to be doing what I was doing. I felt pessimistic and wanted to be proven right. And well, when you're unable to have a good time thats most likely what will happen. Somewhere along the line I stopped giving a shit. It was the best move I ever made. Its not about being selfish either. Its about knowing what you want, and not only that, but chasing it too. No one will fill your dreams for you as successfully as you can yourself. As the saying goes, if you want a job done right...

I've written blogs elsewhere, buy I am thinking of sticking with this one on blogspot. I have a personal journal on my phone, an old blog whose site was shutdown, and even a myspace blog that I think is currently hidden. I don't think it shows on my profile page. But what I mean to really say is that i'm finding that writing is catharic. No matter where I write and whether public or private. And I'll continue to do so. Perhaps I'll start to share an mp3 or two that I come across soon like popular music blogs of late. Some very good stuff comes to mind that I wouldn't mind sharing with others. Nice gems that I unearthed.

Also, I recently met a girl that lives in Michigan. Her name is Amanda and she is fucking amazing. Its funny how shit can work out like that. She is the answer to my prayers, the girl that busts misconceptions and stereotypes, molds and archetypes. Perhaps I have found the perfect girl... Whatever the case, I have been very happy with my choices the last couple weeks. Its been an amazing journey so far, and I'm proud to say that. I'm visiting parts of the world that were previously shut off to me. I feel as though I am breaking through the retardness of having tunnel vision and a closed mindedness that I see in others. That makes me happy, and I hope my love and courage inspires others.

Well, I'm off to my next flight!