a lot has changed

And by change, I mean good change. I was really unhappy with a lot of things for the past 6 months, but I've learned to be happy. And it doesn't involve being run over by others. I somehow got myself into the trap of thinking that appeasing others would bring the fun out of me. I was completely wrong. I remember being totally out of my comfort zone for very simple things. It was the circumstances, and mainly because well... On the inside I didnt want to be doing what I was doing. I felt pessimistic and wanted to be proven right. And well, when you're unable to have a good time thats most likely what will happen. Somewhere along the line I stopped giving a shit. It was the best move I ever made. Its not about being selfish either. Its about knowing what you want, and not only that, but chasing it too. No one will fill your dreams for you as successfully as you can yourself. As the saying goes, if you want a job done right...

I've written blogs elsewhere, buy I am thinking of sticking with this one on blogspot. I have a personal journal on my phone, an old blog whose site was shutdown, and even a myspace blog that I think is currently hidden. I don't think it shows on my profile page. But what I mean to really say is that i'm finding that writing is catharic. No matter where I write and whether public or private. And I'll continue to do so. Perhaps I'll start to share an mp3 or two that I come across soon like popular music blogs of late. Some very good stuff comes to mind that I wouldn't mind sharing with others. Nice gems that I unearthed.

Also, I recently met a girl that lives in Michigan. Her name is Amanda and she is fucking amazing. Its funny how shit can work out like that. She is the answer to my prayers, the girl that busts misconceptions and stereotypes, molds and archetypes. Perhaps I have found the perfect girl... Whatever the case, I have been very happy with my choices the last couple weeks. Its been an amazing journey so far, and I'm proud to say that. I'm visiting parts of the world that were previously shut off to me. I feel as though I am breaking through the retardness of having tunnel vision and a closed mindedness that I see in others. That makes me happy, and I hope my love and courage inspires others.

Well, I'm off to my next flight!