its probably bad when you identify with the scruffy hero who has no friends... he was right once more when talking about his search for friends. and guess what? they all died too. nothing to do with his fault or anything, but sad. atleast he admitted everything. he found what he was searching for. right in front of his face all along... some people think its so obvious, but it really isn't sometimes... sometimes you feel like you have to search the world... its the endless pursuit of happiness... and its often found right at home...
Anime can be deep yes no?
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
i am a bad listener
so everyone keeps telling me
but i don't listen!
"the time of the great eclipse draws near. soon the demon kings will descend."
i used relied on my ability to read between the lines
i had stopped paying attention to the lines themselves
but i don't listen!
"the time of the great eclipse draws near. soon the demon kings will descend."
i used relied on my ability to read between the lines
i had stopped paying attention to the lines themselves
EDC
$75 for tickets
$25 for parking
$1 for poster
$25 for t-shirt
trip report and pictures soon
edit: got it right hurr fool
The Electric Daisy Carnival trip report!
Doors opened at 4pm-4am.
Though the information online said no outside food or beverage, I packed a few goodies along anyways. I brought along a couple granola bars, a couple water bottles, two gatorades, and Mr. Bubbles. I put them in my napsack, packed away smartly, and made my way to the coliseum around 3:30pm. I didn't quite listen to my aunt about the traffic. I heard her say it would take 30 minutes without traffic, so I figured I was on schedule. I didn't quite comprehend the traffic part! I'm a terrible listener. I should have left atleast an hour before I did.
As I neared Martin Luther King Jr Blvd, I hit the line of cars getting off at the same exit as me. My TomTom said that I had only 1 minute and 35 seconds till I reached my destination. That minute turned into about 2 hours! Parking was $25... or I could have been 100 yards closer for $40 parking! What a rip.
Anyways, I picked up my ticket, and I got in line... I cut maybe a thousand people by moving up as far as I could... and the line still stayed as long as ever. At one point, I thought of jumping the fence to get into the carnival. The first area I thought about jumping had some guards standing nearby, so I decided against it... the second area I thought I could jump with the help of the tree above would land me behind some outhouses. It was perfect. So I asked some guys next to me if they would help boost me if I attempted it, and they said sure.
I grabbed onto the fence and tried my way up it. No luck.
My messenger bag began slipping down my side too, and I couldn't quite manage to get over. I ended up with dirty palms from gripping the fence and a little scrape on my way down.
I know what this looks like haha
If only I knew I'd be waiting in line for two more hours, I would have redoubled my efforts on jumping that thing! Jumping over the fence would have saved me from the dreaded line, ensured my bag making it through security, and not missing any of the DJ's. Oh well...
When I rounded the corner of the long fence, I came face to face with another line! It was time for security and bag checks. When I was about 10 people from the front of security, a manager lady told security to quit patting people down or swiping with metal detectors because it was taking too long and the line was getting longer. I had my bag around me hanging behind my back as I got patted down, and the guy patting me down ended up asking me if I had anything in it. I said no, he let me go, and I away I went! No sweat, right?
FINALLY INSIDE.
I called up Phil, and he said he was at the main stage. I made my way over and... WOW, the view was amazing from the top of the stairs. The stage was immense, and there were two carnival rides inside the arena.
Main, Kinetic Stage
Carnival Rides inside Arena
Carnival Rides inside Arena 2
I can't recall which DJ I saw first on stage first. It must have been Eddie Hallowell. Either way, he was good. Pumped up the crowd. Jumped on the table at one point. Awesome. So I made my way to the front searching for Phil, and I was within maybe 3 people of being dead center at the front! Quite amazing how I was easily able to get myself up there so quickly. But I wasn't able to find Phil, so I exited to the left and made my way up to the front all over again, haha. I exited right with no luck once more.
Then Christopher Lawrence came on, who I recognized from Nocturnal Festival the previous year. He was up to his usual antics and put on a good show. At one point during his set I threw a glowstick towards the stage, and I must not have recognized my own strength because it flew much further than I intended. I expected it to land in the front of the crowd while it ended up bouncing off one of his CDJs!! I must say he kept cool and kept on playing with no hestitation.
I decided to take a break from the coliseum, and as I tried to make my way out of there, I had to fight a wave of people going the opposite direction. That was so insane... everyone had to be told to back up because the stadium stairs were being flooded with people. Once out of the stadium I ran around going to random places or whatnot. I can't remember where or why really. There wasn't much rhyme or reason. I remember there were some busses straight out of Across the Universe hanging around opened up to people able to hop inside. There were some huge white tent bubbles where people were able to crash on some bean bags, too. I took advantage of that later that night.
I made my way back to the arena in time for good ol' Benny. As I was running around the stadium seating, a girl out of nowhere gripped me, sat me down and asked my name. I had some time, so I thought I'd chat for a bit. And of course she was rolling, she couldn't keep her hands off me... She told me her name was Serendipity and asked if this was my first rave. I told her it was my second, which I think is about right if I'm counting Nocturnal Festival or whatever... and then she asked if I had a rave name. Wow... no? The subject changed, and I ended up not getting one though. At one point she even asked if I was a cop. I replied that I was only 21... Then she pulled along another guy to chat, and it was time for me to bounce. Well, I couldn't stay forever because Benassi was on in 5 minutes. So bye Rachel... I mean, Serendipity!
A highlight of Benassi's set for me was his Bring the Noise remix by Public Enemy. I didn't particularly like the song before, but now with the amplified stadium speakers, the song really came to life! The build up was amazing... "how low can you go? BASS!" So much detail went unheard before. That song was really meant for a huge crowd to dig.
Then Moby took over. Shaved head and all. Good stuff.
Then Paul Van Dyk. I enjoyed both their stuff much more than I thought I would.
And I never ended up finding you Phil! Sorry. I understand the crazyness on both sides. Cell phone reception was crazy all over the place, too, combined with the loud music... terrible place to try to find people... it's much easier to get lost in the crowd, haha.
Other highlights... hearing some of my favorites getting repped... I just knew I would hear some Daft Punk sometime along the night... and I got one of my favorites, Aerodynamic. Which reminds me! Watch the movie Interstella 5555.
Clip from Interstella 5555
At one point in the night I took a 30 minute nap. I woke up since it was starting to get so effing cold. To warm up I went out and danced some more! Nice incentive for a good time.
I also saw Krafty Kuts late that night/morning. He turned "Smack My Bitch Up" on its head. There was a camera on his every move, and it was nice being able to see him work the tables on screen.
Ah yes, and gifts of the night.
Poster
Shirt
Ticket, glow bracelets, flashlight, and glow earring
Bracelets littered the ground, so there was no point in me buying some myself. The earring I found late that night too, and I thought it was a nice touch. The flashlight came in super handy. I loved it that night. I was able to spot things on the ground, and I was also able to watch my footing. I had to watch out for people laying on the ground receiving light shows... so annoying if you asked me... I don't really mind that you're doing a light show, but do it somewhere else... like not on the dance floor...
Also, not sure where this fits in with the story, but a security guard ended up pushing me for no reason. I was walking into the stadium, and the guy pushed me and kept walking. Some people behind me asked if I was alright. That was so weird. I didn't do anything... maybe it's because he was black and I was white? Haha. Whatever.
When it was all said and done, I crashed in one of the white bubble tents for a couple minutes after buying my poster and shirt. Then I walked to my car and took another nap while traffic cleared out.
Sunday has been my day of rest.
Great event overall.
$25 for parking
$1 for poster
$25 for t-shirt
trip report and pictures soon
edit: got it right hurr fool
The Electric Daisy Carnival trip report!
Doors opened at 4pm-4am.
Though the information online said no outside food or beverage, I packed a few goodies along anyways. I brought along a couple granola bars, a couple water bottles, two gatorades, and Mr. Bubbles. I put them in my napsack, packed away smartly, and made my way to the coliseum around 3:30pm. I didn't quite listen to my aunt about the traffic. I heard her say it would take 30 minutes without traffic, so I figured I was on schedule. I didn't quite comprehend the traffic part! I'm a terrible listener. I should have left atleast an hour before I did.
As I neared Martin Luther King Jr Blvd, I hit the line of cars getting off at the same exit as me. My TomTom said that I had only 1 minute and 35 seconds till I reached my destination. That minute turned into about 2 hours! Parking was $25... or I could have been 100 yards closer for $40 parking! What a rip.
Anyways, I picked up my ticket, and I got in line... I cut maybe a thousand people by moving up as far as I could... and the line still stayed as long as ever. At one point, I thought of jumping the fence to get into the carnival. The first area I thought about jumping had some guards standing nearby, so I decided against it... the second area I thought I could jump with the help of the tree above would land me behind some outhouses. It was perfect. So I asked some guys next to me if they would help boost me if I attempted it, and they said sure.
I grabbed onto the fence and tried my way up it. No luck.
My messenger bag began slipping down my side too, and I couldn't quite manage to get over. I ended up with dirty palms from gripping the fence and a little scrape on my way down.
I know what this looks like haha
If only I knew I'd be waiting in line for two more hours, I would have redoubled my efforts on jumping that thing! Jumping over the fence would have saved me from the dreaded line, ensured my bag making it through security, and not missing any of the DJ's. Oh well...
When I rounded the corner of the long fence, I came face to face with another line! It was time for security and bag checks. When I was about 10 people from the front of security, a manager lady told security to quit patting people down or swiping with metal detectors because it was taking too long and the line was getting longer. I had my bag around me hanging behind my back as I got patted down, and the guy patting me down ended up asking me if I had anything in it. I said no, he let me go, and I away I went! No sweat, right?
FINALLY INSIDE.
I called up Phil, and he said he was at the main stage. I made my way over and... WOW, the view was amazing from the top of the stairs. The stage was immense, and there were two carnival rides inside the arena.
Main, Kinetic Stage
Carnival Rides inside Arena
Carnival Rides inside Arena 2
I can't recall which DJ I saw first on stage first. It must have been Eddie Hallowell. Either way, he was good. Pumped up the crowd. Jumped on the table at one point. Awesome. So I made my way to the front searching for Phil, and I was within maybe 3 people of being dead center at the front! Quite amazing how I was easily able to get myself up there so quickly. But I wasn't able to find Phil, so I exited to the left and made my way up to the front all over again, haha. I exited right with no luck once more.
Then Christopher Lawrence came on, who I recognized from Nocturnal Festival the previous year. He was up to his usual antics and put on a good show. At one point during his set I threw a glowstick towards the stage, and I must not have recognized my own strength because it flew much further than I intended. I expected it to land in the front of the crowd while it ended up bouncing off one of his CDJs!! I must say he kept cool and kept on playing with no hestitation.
I decided to take a break from the coliseum, and as I tried to make my way out of there, I had to fight a wave of people going the opposite direction. That was so insane... everyone had to be told to back up because the stadium stairs were being flooded with people. Once out of the stadium I ran around going to random places or whatnot. I can't remember where or why really. There wasn't much rhyme or reason. I remember there were some busses straight out of Across the Universe hanging around opened up to people able to hop inside. There were some huge white tent bubbles where people were able to crash on some bean bags, too. I took advantage of that later that night.
I made my way back to the arena in time for good ol' Benny. As I was running around the stadium seating, a girl out of nowhere gripped me, sat me down and asked my name. I had some time, so I thought I'd chat for a bit. And of course she was rolling, she couldn't keep her hands off me... She told me her name was Serendipity and asked if this was my first rave. I told her it was my second, which I think is about right if I'm counting Nocturnal Festival or whatever... and then she asked if I had a rave name. Wow... no? The subject changed, and I ended up not getting one though. At one point she even asked if I was a cop. I replied that I was only 21... Then she pulled along another guy to chat, and it was time for me to bounce. Well, I couldn't stay forever because Benassi was on in 5 minutes. So bye Rachel... I mean, Serendipity!
A highlight of Benassi's set for me was his Bring the Noise remix by Public Enemy. I didn't particularly like the song before, but now with the amplified stadium speakers, the song really came to life! The build up was amazing... "how low can you go? BASS!" So much detail went unheard before. That song was really meant for a huge crowd to dig.
Then Moby took over. Shaved head and all. Good stuff.
Then Paul Van Dyk. I enjoyed both their stuff much more than I thought I would.
And I never ended up finding you Phil! Sorry. I understand the crazyness on both sides. Cell phone reception was crazy all over the place, too, combined with the loud music... terrible place to try to find people... it's much easier to get lost in the crowd, haha.
Other highlights... hearing some of my favorites getting repped... I just knew I would hear some Daft Punk sometime along the night... and I got one of my favorites, Aerodynamic. Which reminds me! Watch the movie Interstella 5555.
Clip from Interstella 5555
At one point in the night I took a 30 minute nap. I woke up since it was starting to get so effing cold. To warm up I went out and danced some more! Nice incentive for a good time.
I also saw Krafty Kuts late that night/morning. He turned "Smack My Bitch Up" on its head. There was a camera on his every move, and it was nice being able to see him work the tables on screen.
Ah yes, and gifts of the night.
Poster
Shirt
Ticket, glow bracelets, flashlight, and glow earring
Bracelets littered the ground, so there was no point in me buying some myself. The earring I found late that night too, and I thought it was a nice touch. The flashlight came in super handy. I loved it that night. I was able to spot things on the ground, and I was also able to watch my footing. I had to watch out for people laying on the ground receiving light shows... so annoying if you asked me... I don't really mind that you're doing a light show, but do it somewhere else... like not on the dance floor...
Also, not sure where this fits in with the story, but a security guard ended up pushing me for no reason. I was walking into the stadium, and the guy pushed me and kept walking. Some people behind me asked if I was alright. That was so weird. I didn't do anything... maybe it's because he was black and I was white? Haha. Whatever.
When it was all said and done, I crashed in one of the white bubble tents for a couple minutes after buying my poster and shirt. Then I walked to my car and took another nap while traffic cleared out.
Sunday has been my day of rest.
Great event overall.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
and then i laugh
i look at my age
and i look at some of the problems around me
and its funny
im only 21
for a couple more months
haha
such a kid i swear
and i look at some of the problems around me
and its funny
im only 21
for a couple more months
haha
such a kid i swear
Friday, June 27, 2008
forgetting
the perfect ingredients were missing
only needed sour cream
and
ketchup
the tacos were almost perfect
mmmm
only needed sour cream
and
ketchup
the tacos were almost perfect
mmmm
going berserk
got outta work.
EDC is tomorrow.
currently watching berserk!
also have 1408 to watch.
i saw interstella 5555 last night.
i love daft punk
so smooth
entertaining
good fun
EDC!
TOMORROW
EDC!
Yay
EDC is tomorrow.
currently watching berserk!
also have 1408 to watch.
i saw interstella 5555 last night.
i love daft punk
so smooth
entertaining
good fun
EDC!
TOMORROW
EDC!
Yay
Thursday, June 26, 2008
i had this weird dream
i was at the barn again, but everything was changed
it was remodeled and looking different
i had got there late with a ride from riley's mom
brandon was over, and everyone had just finished playing catch football
i was looking forward to football with everyone but i missed it
looking around inside...
the organ was taken apart and put back together
it looked like a mess, but it had meaning
it had a hard drive of some kind
that had always been there
but it still needed another part
some kind of fan or cooling mechanism
i really didnt understand what some older guy and riley were talking about because it didn't exactly make sense. jibberish really because i wasnt meant to understand it
and then i sat down to watch tv up at the barn
i was eating sour cream and onion ruffles
and the sequel to donnie darko was playing
i knew i shouldnt have been watching tv but it was already late and getting dark, so no more football was going to happen. i should have helped out somehow, but i didnt know how to. i knew all of the movement in the barn had to do with synthesesia. there was an excitement in the air. i remember riley writing in a weird language, or it was a familiar language but sideways/out of order, written all over some circuit boards held in clear plastic ice cube looking boxes stacked on top of each other
joe had changed his myspace default to a picture of...
some blankets, cardboard boxes, boomboxes, and cassette players setup in front of the tv at home, too. i assumed it meant we were going to learn to break dance
it was remodeled and looking different
i had got there late with a ride from riley's mom
brandon was over, and everyone had just finished playing catch football
i was looking forward to football with everyone but i missed it
looking around inside...
the organ was taken apart and put back together
it looked like a mess, but it had meaning
it had a hard drive of some kind
that had always been there
but it still needed another part
some kind of fan or cooling mechanism
i really didnt understand what some older guy and riley were talking about because it didn't exactly make sense. jibberish really because i wasnt meant to understand it
and then i sat down to watch tv up at the barn
i was eating sour cream and onion ruffles
and the sequel to donnie darko was playing
i knew i shouldnt have been watching tv but it was already late and getting dark, so no more football was going to happen. i should have helped out somehow, but i didnt know how to. i knew all of the movement in the barn had to do with synthesesia. there was an excitement in the air. i remember riley writing in a weird language, or it was a familiar language but sideways/out of order, written all over some circuit boards held in clear plastic ice cube looking boxes stacked on top of each other
joe had changed his myspace default to a picture of...
some blankets, cardboard boxes, boomboxes, and cassette players setup in front of the tv at home, too. i assumed it meant we were going to learn to break dance
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
meeting and doggies
i'm currently at a best western up in merced. a small city a couple hours north of los angeles. i forgot what day of the week it is.
ah, wednesday.
saturday is the electric daisy carnival. i wonder if i'm going to go...
hmmm... i'm at a coin-flip...
okay, back to packing things up
ah, wednesday.
saturday is the electric daisy carnival. i wonder if i'm going to go...
hmmm... i'm at a coin-flip...
okay, back to packing things up
Sunday, June 22, 2008
working for my uncle
yesterday i worked for my uncle on a short film set. i spent about 15 hours yesterday working my ass off... i learned a lot very quickly, and it was hard work. there was also a lot of lingo and vocabulary to pick up on. it was fun, but tough. and all for no pay... i can positively say i know how that feels. all that work just to have a name in the credits... i heard i'll be up in the IMDb for the film i helped with, thats pretty cool...
and now im working for my aunt till thursday...
and now im working for my aunt till thursday...
Saturday, June 21, 2008
headspace
***************************
its not about what happened
the other day I fell out of the fucked up tree, and i hit every branch on the way down. i had two friends at the bottom catch me. i dont know what kind of abyss they saved me from.
and later that day, i saw the fire inside them. i hadnt seen that side of one before, and i was speechless. shocked. i really think i saw what true friends were capable of...
all it really took was a few words and being there. thats all i wanted or needed. just make sure i dont kill myself or make bad decisions. and i got more than that. i really laid myself out like a sacrifice. i poured out everything, and it wouldn't stop coming. that wouldve been the time to stomp my head on the curb if someone wanted me dead. i needed that hug more than she knows. i wanted a group hug hours earlier but was too afraid to ask. i never thought id think those thoughts before. it was all there.
the full story is in the mind of those who were there. the pain, the reality, and the intensity were all there. it cant be recreated. it cant be played out or explained for anyone. i do a bad job at trying because things will never be the same.
***************************
its not about what happened
the other day I fell out of the fucked up tree, and i hit every branch on the way down. i had two friends at the bottom catch me. i dont know what kind of abyss they saved me from.
and later that day, i saw the fire inside them. i hadnt seen that side of one before, and i was speechless. shocked. i really think i saw what true friends were capable of...
all it really took was a few words and being there. thats all i wanted or needed. just make sure i dont kill myself or make bad decisions. and i got more than that. i really laid myself out like a sacrifice. i poured out everything, and it wouldn't stop coming. that wouldve been the time to stomp my head on the curb if someone wanted me dead. i needed that hug more than she knows. i wanted a group hug hours earlier but was too afraid to ask. i never thought id think those thoughts before. it was all there.
the full story is in the mind of those who were there. the pain, the reality, and the intensity were all there. it cant be recreated. it cant be played out or explained for anyone. i do a bad job at trying because things will never be the same.
***************************
change was on its way
it happened quicker than i could say yes
i can feel it in the air, and i can feel it in my body. i was thinking on the way up to LA about how im going to meet people i've never met before, and how refreshing that might be. i still love my old friends. i was just thinking that new faces is what i need if i plan on continuing to date anyone. i need someone new to break things up... set new things in motion... something so new... so fresh... ah whatever. I just had the thought that I'd never met my wife in my lifetime yet. And I must keep looking and searching. Keep hope alive.
now that im in LA, i have a lot of time for thoughts. maybe some time to change my body. maybe change the way i eat. im own my own for cooking. spaghetti, tacos, burritos, and ramen are going to change my lifestyle.
i can feel it in the air, and i can feel it in my body. i was thinking on the way up to LA about how im going to meet people i've never met before, and how refreshing that might be. i still love my old friends. i was just thinking that new faces is what i need if i plan on continuing to date anyone. i need someone new to break things up... set new things in motion... something so new... so fresh... ah whatever. I just had the thought that I'd never met my wife in my lifetime yet. And I must keep looking and searching. Keep hope alive.
now that im in LA, i have a lot of time for thoughts. maybe some time to change my body. maybe change the way i eat. im own my own for cooking. spaghetti, tacos, burritos, and ramen are going to change my lifestyle.
Friday, June 20, 2008
hitting the fan
shit went to shit yesterday
i got back from drum circle
easily arguable as the best night ever
and then i tell everyone about how amanda committed suicide
i have a breakdown
sob sob sobbing
uncontrollable
honest emotion
hours pass and then i come to find out its untrue
it was all made up
from a couple different people feeding me lies
...
what the fuck
what the fuck is wrong with people
i got back from drum circle
easily arguable as the best night ever
and then i tell everyone about how amanda committed suicide
i have a breakdown
sob sob sobbing
uncontrollable
honest emotion
hours pass and then i come to find out its untrue
it was all made up
from a couple different people feeding me lies
...
what the fuck
what the fuck is wrong with people
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
ever felt like maybe the world is revolving in the wrong direction?
i think maybe im coming to realize why im unhappy
in my pursuit
i destroyed everything around me
of course i pushed people away
i wanted to know who i was
i thought maybe that was the process
people went through
but its not even close
and deep down i think few do know who i am
it feels like i have something to prove
but the saying goes that you have nothing to prove
im not so sure about that
well
words are just words
written in blank space
they dont do anything
how much meaning can it have
especially if its unread
but atleast written
its easy to be unhappy
when youve destroyed everything around you
and
its hard to be happy
when youre stuck with that mess
and have to clean up
but its the only way
if you know whats worth anything
you would try
as said before
out of sight, out of mind
but im not going to let that win
exaggeration, and hurt from directions unseen, coupled with lonely thoughts... i can see how giant monsters can become when left unattended. so monstrous you want to give up. you feel powerless.
but
dont roll all of your problems into one until its impossible.
sometimes i wish it was just a poison i could throw up
i think maybe im coming to realize why im unhappy
in my pursuit
i destroyed everything around me
of course i pushed people away
i wanted to know who i was
i thought maybe that was the process
people went through
but its not even close
and deep down i think few do know who i am
it feels like i have something to prove
but the saying goes that you have nothing to prove
im not so sure about that
well
words are just words
written in blank space
they dont do anything
how much meaning can it have
especially if its unread
but atleast written
its easy to be unhappy
when youve destroyed everything around you
and
its hard to be happy
when youre stuck with that mess
and have to clean up
but its the only way
if you know whats worth anything
you would try
as said before
out of sight, out of mind
but im not going to let that win
exaggeration, and hurt from directions unseen, coupled with lonely thoughts... i can see how giant monsters can become when left unattended. so monstrous you want to give up. you feel powerless.
but
dont roll all of your problems into one until its impossible.
sometimes i wish it was just a poison i could throw up
sometimes
i feel like my truest thoughts are written right here
away from all other bullshit
its a safe haven
a little piece of the world
a slice
i wish so much was different
i do feel like i make the same mistakes
but... i dont know
i want space
and then i want love at the same time
i feel like my own thoughts are a conundrum
i had quit weed for awhile
a self exercise, coupled with peer pressure
i went a couple weeks without it
and then i saw the stupidity of everything/anything
i saw someone else who had gone even longer
without it and bite the bullet
it doesnt really matter in the end
as long as youre happy
and you dont turn into a couch potato
its a nice cycle and all
stay on top of it
and never lie to yourself
happiness is key to everything
(im searching, and very bad at it)
got 2 PSPs the other day
turns out that the hacking scene on them has gotten tougher since the release of PSP slims, which are a little smaller in size than previous PSPs. nowadays the mods involve breaking open batteries to flip switches or solder some connection. i wish i had my old PSPs. but these new ones are silver and red. i want them to work... i want mariokart for the snes on there. i want vectorman. i want super mario brothers 3. i want the casino kid. i want bubble bobble. i want breath of fire. i want final fantasy 3/6. i want chrono cross!!!! i want final fantasy 8!!!! i want parasite eve 2!!!! poy poy.
i think i still have tons of PSone isos and PSP isos on my external HD. should be a joy flipping through all the files. no point yet though.
im thinking about im getting a prehacked battery.
away from all other bullshit
its a safe haven
a little piece of the world
a slice
i wish so much was different
i do feel like i make the same mistakes
but... i dont know
i want space
and then i want love at the same time
i feel like my own thoughts are a conundrum
i had quit weed for awhile
a self exercise, coupled with peer pressure
i went a couple weeks without it
and then i saw the stupidity of everything/anything
i saw someone else who had gone even longer
without it and bite the bullet
it doesnt really matter in the end
as long as youre happy
and you dont turn into a couch potato
its a nice cycle and all
stay on top of it
and never lie to yourself
happiness is key to everything
(im searching, and very bad at it)
got 2 PSPs the other day
turns out that the hacking scene on them has gotten tougher since the release of PSP slims, which are a little smaller in size than previous PSPs. nowadays the mods involve breaking open batteries to flip switches or solder some connection. i wish i had my old PSPs. but these new ones are silver and red. i want them to work... i want mariokart for the snes on there. i want vectorman. i want super mario brothers 3. i want the casino kid. i want bubble bobble. i want breath of fire. i want final fantasy 3/6. i want chrono cross!!!! i want final fantasy 8!!!! i want parasite eve 2!!!! poy poy.
i think i still have tons of PSone isos and PSP isos on my external HD. should be a joy flipping through all the files. no point yet though.
im thinking about im getting a prehacked battery.
Monday, June 16, 2008
doggie toy heaven
its fun to watch time in reverse
las vegas runs on crack time
goddammit
you know what
i also thought about
was that i know when its time to quit
i pulled out of a poker game
and that was good for me
it was late, i was against a tough table
and while being card dead
the only pots i won i would lose minutes later
and it was fine
cause i knew i would crush with a string of cards
they just never came
i was tired, time to go
didnt go to any clubs
either closed or like $20 so i passed
and went to bellagio for midnight cards
so many weird stories
like a lady throwing a chair at a dude at the table
bright daylight that hurt my eyes morning
right outside near the front...
the other day it was insane
it didnt seem so weird at the time because youre
just in that moment where somehow it makes sense
-$500 @ O'sheas 1-2 NL
-$200 @ Bellagio $4-8 Limit
I wanted to bust that old man so bad.
He was grumpy.
And dumb.
Got him to shove his stack with nines
I knew he would shit himself if i called
He got really lucky. Quad 8's.
Won the high hand of the night for like $120 too.
I tripled up with quad 3's.
Imagine that. But it wasn't as good as quad 8's.
And another guy had AK and three aces on the board.
Quad A's right? But it doesn't count for the hi hand jackpot
because he's not
holding a card that's playing?
What the fuck.
Okay.
I get it now.
Barona has better dealers, floor, and
everything
remember when i fought for that chopped pot?
i was calling for cameras
haha
so awesome...
gimme my pot!
and i knew that little kid i was playing with would cry
and yeah i chopped it with him
the floor was on my side, and i knew he would be pissed
it was all his money! lol, his dad gave it to him he later said and he's taking a shot at vegas i guess... he would go broke
las vegas runs on crack time
goddammit
you know what
i also thought about
was that i know when its time to quit
i pulled out of a poker game
and that was good for me
it was late, i was against a tough table
and while being card dead
the only pots i won i would lose minutes later
and it was fine
cause i knew i would crush with a string of cards
they just never came
i was tired, time to go
didnt go to any clubs
either closed or like $20 so i passed
and went to bellagio for midnight cards
so many weird stories
like a lady throwing a chair at a dude at the table
bright daylight that hurt my eyes morning
right outside near the front...
the other day it was insane
it didnt seem so weird at the time because youre
just in that moment where somehow it makes sense
-$500 @ O'sheas 1-2 NL
-$200 @ Bellagio $4-8 Limit
I wanted to bust that old man so bad.
He was grumpy.
And dumb.
Got him to shove his stack with nines
I knew he would shit himself if i called
He got really lucky. Quad 8's.
Won the high hand of the night for like $120 too.
I tripled up with quad 3's.
Imagine that. But it wasn't as good as quad 8's.
And another guy had AK and three aces on the board.
Quad A's right? But it doesn't count for the hi hand jackpot
because he's not
holding a card that's playing?
What the fuck.
Okay.
I get it now.
Barona has better dealers, floor, and
everything
remember when i fought for that chopped pot?
i was calling for cameras
haha
so awesome...
gimme my pot!
and i knew that little kid i was playing with would cry
and yeah i chopped it with him
the floor was on my side, and i knew he would be pissed
it was all his money! lol, his dad gave it to him he later said and he's taking a shot at vegas i guess... he would go broke
Saturday, June 14, 2008
I'm currently at the Penn and Teller show right now. I'm in line to sign an envelope. Should be a good show. It starts in about 10 minutes. Also got to see some of the World Series of Poker earlier today. Its mind boggling how large the tournaments are. Puts things into perspective on what it takes to win a bracelet. And you could probably guess I'm hanging out at the Rio right now. I gave up $500 playing poker earlier this morning too at O'sheas. It always stings to lose, blah. And then I lose confidence and wish I could quit poker. And then I realize that I love it too much. I did have a bad run afterall. Lost with kings twice. Chopped a $500 pot I should have won, but I had mucked my cards and had to call the floor. Of course it doesn't help to have a hangover with no food in your stomach. More later, I'm going to try to have a great Saturday night in Vegas. How hard can it be? On with the show!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Ended with a B in my differential equations class. It paid off hanging around in the math study center. It was my homework assignments and takehome test the last week of class that boosted me over the edge. I got a D+ on the final, which was hard as hell...
And when the dust cleared, my grade jumped from a C to a cherished B at 80.3%!! Yay!!! My hardest earned grade in quite some time.... thanks to those who dealt with my couple of days of math obsession (whether you knew it or not)...
And when the dust cleared, my grade jumped from a C to a cherished B at 80.3%!! Yay!!! My hardest earned grade in quite some time.... thanks to those who dealt with my couple of days of math obsession (whether you knew it or not)...
working
found a job of sorts. Im working for my aunt as a personal assistant. Today I'm doing an assortment of errands. I unloaded and loaded her truck, bought cookies and water for her upcoming meeting, dropped off dry cleaning, had a set of house keys made, bought stamps, and now I'm printing addresses onto envelopes to stuff them. Its all in a day's work. Fun stuff. I'm going to take Bailey to the dog park after I'm done printing envelopes, and then I'm going to fix Penny's wireless internet.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Wtf happened
so much has happened in the past few days... Visiting amanda once more for DEMF weekend, not getting a ride from the airport, gambling it up with chuken (2) and kevin at viejas... And now I'm stranded on the side of the road in my shit car, overheated, and now the battery is dead too.... Fucking shit
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