sometimes

i feel like my truest thoughts are written right here
away from all other bullshit
its a safe haven
a little piece of the world
a slice


i wish so much was different
i do feel like i make the same mistakes
but... i dont know
i want space
and then i want love at the same time
i feel like my own thoughts are a conundrum

i had quit weed for awhile
a self exercise, coupled with peer pressure
i went a couple weeks without it
and then i saw the stupidity of everything/anything
i saw someone else who had gone even longer
without it and bite the bullet
it doesnt really matter in the end
as long as youre happy
and you dont turn into a couch potato
its a nice cycle and all
stay on top of it
and never lie to yourself


happiness is key to everything
(im searching, and very bad at it)


got 2 PSPs the other day
turns out that the hacking scene on them has gotten tougher since the release of PSP slims, which are a little smaller in size than previous PSPs. nowadays the mods involve breaking open batteries to flip switches or solder some connection. i wish i had my old PSPs. but these new ones are silver and red. i want them to work... i want mariokart for the snes on there. i want vectorman. i want super mario brothers 3. i want the casino kid. i want bubble bobble. i want breath of fire. i want final fantasy 3/6. i want chrono cross!!!! i want final fantasy 8!!!! i want parasite eve 2!!!! poy poy.

i think i still have tons of PSone isos and PSP isos on my external HD. should be a joy flipping through all the files. no point yet though.

im thinking about im getting a prehacked battery.